Here in this honky tonk little house of mirrors. I knew that I would continue to feel these ill-effects if I stayed where I was.
Am.
4 D 3D5D. 6D a dollar!
And you know them silicone boys will get it.
Meanwhile:
The kitty had to roost somewhere a little quieter rather than with the krazy dog and little Napoleon.
And I was a good mark wasn't I, wasn't I?
I found how absolutely wrapped around a paw I can be.
Meanwhile I remember those times in Seattle, during the Nirvana years, when we all would collaborate with promise, it was beautiful yet my head was void of future. No plans just the present. Hedonistic with a dash of divinity.
And the company I was keeping blew my mind. How lovely, how expensive they were.
Open. Heart and mind.
And I had boundaries. It came in short bursts.
I was evolving. I knew it. Bright bolts of understanding, opening up my mind, my relations with people, having boundaries and knowing the games played. And somehow not choosing that awareness as a constant. Was I trading my career in like a car? Then,
what happened? All hell happened.
It fell apart. No forward action.
Stasis and stupidity.
To start that again,
Start it up,
is a dream a fantasy,
Of recurring nightmares, delusions of grandeur. Spiritual themes. So dopey. Too revealing.
Reminding myself to never ever do this. People are ready when they're ready and you ain't going to make them more ready by talking at them and having them run away.
Does it even matter?
does it influence
the choices
They feel like fate.
To make and strive and strain in order to survive.
And what is survival? Different than prosperity.
A Taurus heart loves the stasis, the stable, the secure.
And so, messing with me,
movement.
We're all here to witness the final countdown.
We're all here to ignore it too.
The thing to remember, the thing is not to go thinging everything, the thing is to evolve again, even if your redneck chafes.
Again:
awake arise awake arise
